finally!!! :)

Finally!!! Is a relieve when I’ve finally found peoples to march for coming sports days. Hahaha.. So I’m quite happy today for what I have done, “climb” the staircase block H for several times, walking around the school compound with the “skirt” alert.. You know what I meant.. But it worth it for me because I can see that there are few peoples that I can say they are really working hard in this especially.. ehem2.. Both of you know it.. I don’t have to announce right.. Later you “kembang”.. Anyway thanks a lots for your helps.. I won’t make if it isn’t because the two of you.. I really appreciated it.. anyway tunggu la orang tu.. Which is ‘ehem3’ belanja makan McD.. hehehe.. But today unfortunately, just now my finger gets cuts while helping dato’ zubaidah (DZ) house for their ‘khemah berhias’ while staying back… hahaha..mengkhianati nightingale..(sori tut2), but you don’t have to worry because I have puts some antiseptic to prevent bacteria infections… by the way, today I have a great and wonderful day together with my friends… even though with the ‘sukantara’ and stuffs that needs to be settled I still enjoyed my day…we have learnt a great skill run and great skills of jumping ..Rite kawan2? Huh~... Somehow, I did get **** point for my house!...and I didn’t escapes from the field.. hebatkan???.. after all the things I have gone through, I have seen, I have heard… I realized that, I always say that I’m facing with something that’s the hardest things on earth, I can’t take it and so on.. and I assumed many of us are like me.. I don’t have, I can’t do.. this and that!.. but do we realized that what we are going through sometimes is much more easier than the others peoples around us… don’t you think what I said is correct???... Take a few seconds to think... Sometime we may just get ourselves lose in the world that’s full with temptation.. What am I crapping??? Don’t ask me because I also don’t know what I am saying..

Maya said “sharing is not a crime indeed sharing is caring!!”

i'm totally drained!!!

Maya is really in ‘head over heel’ situation right now. I can’t even think properly what to do next. Maya’s blank... I felt like my brain can’t even function at the normal rate at this particular moment.… you know, I’ve tried to be a good leader at least for once in this 17 years time… I tried to communicate well with peoples nicely... but it really seem like I’m watering the plants during rainy day. I felt like this peoples don’t even bothered to help me... at times I really feel like I want to say this out to them “Can’t you please contribute something to the club”.. But I know its sound so rude.. Even though I know how to be rude I was exposed to this type of surroundings but that doesn’t’ makes me one.. and because I hate when peoples being rude to me so I prevent my self from doing the same things.. u know there’s an idioms saying that “ what you do will come backs to you”. I’m wondering, is it a hard thing to be done for things that need to be done once in a year??? Why u needs to give lots of excuses which are irrelevant to me? And the worst is they seem like they don’t even bothered to know what’s happening in the club... I guess sometimes I need to use violence in order for them to follow instructions given... I really don’t understand... Is it hard for them to follow instructions? I guess I know why you like to shout... and now only I understand your feeling when you said “I love to shout. Anyway who cares?”… I can’t blame you for doing that... Even if I’m at you place I’ll do the same things I guess… It’s not worth it to sacrifice you energy and life for the other one’s sake if the one’s don’t even bother to care for what you are doing ... After all I felt stupid for posting this in my blog… but then I need something… paper, web, diary or what ever it’s to spill all this problems out from my head…at least for this moment of time..

ehem3...Anyway, don't misunderstand for what I’ve wrote in the previous post.. My dad isn't that bad... he's cool actually... :)

p/s: i know you'll be back one day.. imysm... sorry for causing you so much troubles all this while... thank you so much.

I appreciate your helps and thanks again for being with me through ups and downs... love you sgt2

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arggghhhh!!!!

sakit hati!!! benci3!!! tau x btaper sakit nyer klau melibatkan hati yg sakit???? kdg2 ak tertanya2, susah sangat ker nak berikan kepercayaan tuh kt ak??? have i ever do sumthing yg bleyh buatkan 'they' lost faith in me... i tried to be a good girl (daughter).. ank yg bertanggungjwb...ank yg terpuji(ehem3).... x communicate dgn bdk laki yg sebaya, klau ckp pn, muka sure blurr abis n tunduk bwh.. ak x der phone no. bdk laki(kcuali email x) )... kluar dgn kwn2 prempuan pn skali skala, dua kali dua kala inikan plak nk berdating ngan bdk laki yg dgelar boyfriend.. maunyer bpk ak kejar ak pusing satu komtar klau dia tau( hiperbola satu kemestian yer)... n percaya x klau ak kata ak kluar dgn kwn skali jer dlm 5 tahun ni????... unbelievable kan??...beri tepukan gemuruh kat aliyah sbb berjaya mengahrungi semua itu di dlm masa bertahun2 ni!!! (aliyah bow utk sesiapa yg tepuk tangan tu)..n tu suma sbb ak cuba raih kepercayaan mak bpk ak yg mmg concern kt ak... eventhough ak ank sulung tapi korang x akn nmpk ak mcm d 1st daughter pn.. sbb tu bler kt sk ak ckp ak ank sulung suma buat muka mcm nmpk alien mendarat kat pdg perdana sinjojes tuh...suma x caya bulat2 yg ak ni ada adik2.... satu fakta yg dahsyat is ak naik bas awam pn bpk ak ada kt sblh ..xp... ak pi shopping pn, mak ak ada kt tmpt yg sama... ak msg2 pn, bpk ak check (kdg2)... tgok btapa mak n bapak ak x percaya kan ak.. ish3.. tpi ak x kisah jer slalunyer until la smalam... bpk ak dapat msg drpd sorg mamat nama AMIR dri mrsm berseri.. mau pucat muka ak wak2 tuh.. sbb apa ak pucat n terkezut??! sbb ak sure bpk ak nanty attack ak pnyer la.. dia jrg attack iqa sbb iqa kebal..iron lady.. mana ada crush2 jiwang karat ni...wlaupn ak nie innocent hbs dat tyme...bpk ak still tanya2 sapa bdk tuh..kan ak dh kata ak x de kwn kat berseri tapi bpk ak duk syak jgk2.. ak apatah lagi nk ada kwn lelaki kt berseri nuh...tmbh2 kwn laki yg nama dia amir.. bpk ak x plak kata iqa pnyer kwn.. dia mai soal ak!!!.. wuahahaha... rasa mcm nak jerit kat satu dunia jer yg ak tak kenal mamat berseri tuh!!! serius ak tak tipu... so, ak pun buat muka poyo masuk bilik... tahan sakit hati smpai la skrg ni... T-T

p/s: cuba bygkan klau org yg korang kenal sgt2 ckp cmni kt korang " i dn bothered 2 knw anymore n d moment i died ur d last to knw"... sakit kan???!!!

hi!!!
first question.. knapa ak blog??
ntah, ak pn xtaw knp ak start blogging padahal ak nie bknlah hantu komputer dan ak pn bknnyer ada bnyk masa nk on9 since ak spm thn ni..tpi itula... sbb kononnyer ak xde keja nk buat dh di saat nih (cuti sk seminggu), ak pn blog la... mungkn sbb ak dh x larat nk tulis n luahkan apa yg ak rasa kt dlm jurnal (konon cover pkataan diari la) kot...tapi xpe.. since dah start blogging, bnyk benda nk tulis.. bnyk benda nk crite, bnyk benda nk luahkan..bnyk jgk benda nk kongsi...mgkn beban akan bkurang.. sbb sum1 pnah gtaw ak bler kita share masalah kita... beban tu akn berkurang... ak tgh try la ni... tgok ckit btul ke tak hypothesis dia..

firstly, siapa ak?? maya?? knapa nama ni kelihatan amat ke-mengada-adaan...actly, nama ak nur fatimah aliyah.. since i was small dh mmg lekat nama ni kat ak sbb ak x bleyh sebut nama ak dgn lancar...bler makcik2 dan pakcik2 tanya "sapa nama?" ak jwb ma aya... so, bermula dgn ma aya! ma aya!...yg brasal dri kata fatimah aliyah... bler lama2 jadi maya... sampai la umur ak dh nk mencecah 17 thn.. x bleyh nak buat apa dah..

since ak x letak profile picture... korang mesti tertanya2 mcm mana la muka maya ni...ak gtaw siapa2 la..ak nih tak la cantik n tak la hodoh buat pengetahuan korang... ak cuma typical perempuan melayu malaysia... ak x la pandai nak berkata2 dlm blog nih.. juz stakat nak spill out apa yg aku rasa dlm hidup ak yg sejak dua menjak ni up side down sikit... jadi faham2 la yer..