Maya is really in ‘head over heel’ situation right now. I can’t even think properly what to do next. Maya’s blank... I felt like my brain can’t even function at the normal rate at this particular moment.… you know, I’ve tried to be a good leader at least for once in this 17 years time… I tried to communicate well with peoples nicely... but it really seem like I’m watering the plants during rainy day. I felt like this peoples don’t even bothered to help me... at times I really feel like I want to say this out to them “Can’t you please contribute something to the club”.. But I know its sound so rude.. Even though I know how to be rude I was exposed to this type of surroundings but that doesn’t’ makes me one.. and because I hate when peoples being rude to me so I prevent my self from doing the same things.. u know there’s an idioms saying that “ what you do will come backs to you”. I’m wondering, is it a hard thing to be done for things that need to be done once in a year??? Why u needs to give lots of excuses which are irrelevant to me? And the worst is they seem like they don’t even bothered to know what’s happening in the club... I guess sometimes I need to use violence in order for them to follow instructions given... I really don’t understand... Is it hard for them to follow instructions? I guess I know why you like to shout... and now only I understand your feeling when you said “I love to shout. Anyway who cares?”… I can’t blame you for doing that... Even if I’m at you place I’ll do the same things I guess… It’s not worth it to sacrifice you energy and life for the other one’s sake if the one’s don’t even bother to care for what you are doing ... After all I felt stupid for posting this in my blog… but then I need something… paper, web, diary or what ever it’s to spill all this problems out from my head…at least for this moment of time..
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ehem3...Anyway, don't misunderstand for what I’ve wrote in the previous post.. My dad isn't that bad... he's cool actually... :)
p/s: i know you'll be back one day.. imysm... sorry for causing you so much troubles all this while... thank you so much.
I appreciate your helps and thanks again for being with me through ups and downs... love you sgt2
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